Hello all,

I know that I was asshole here, I actually post this to hear your ideas to reverse the situation.

At my holiday to somewhere else, I (32 years old, medical doctor outside of my country) heard that doctor control of my father turned out something serious. Today he had a surgery, and even if the surgery went well (as far as I heard), he is still in ICU.

Here is what I have done wrong in the last days after that doctor control,

- I contacted them once a day.
- Asked if he is taken at the control, and then results.
- Texted to my mum today if he is getting in surgery, and when not hearing anything, calling her. She just said out of surgery and hanged off though.

And this evening, called again and she was very upset, but also very furious with me. My mom is blaming me with calling just to get rid of a duty, not asking to talk to his doctor directly (while I had my phone all day open after she telling me that she would call me at the doctor's room), not contacting other doctors in the region, not mentally supporting but meanwhile all wide being open for my friends, and not asking if they need help while everyone did, questioning what she did wrong to grow me.

Why I did like this, I thought then they would be running errands, from doctor rooms to others, and about the colleague talk, I thought then it was not possible due to her schedule or so. I do realise that I haven't been a good son since then. I am not a bad person, I love my parents, I would sacrifice many things for them, I am upset and anxious about what my father is having. I want to ask you then what I can do to solve this situation.