Hey so I’d like to know if I’m in the wrong here? For some context, I’ve been battling with obesity for as long as I can remember. I’ve always had an unhealthy relationship with food. My mom would pretty much shamed me for eating something while praising my sister for being skinny (we don’t have the best relationship, my sister and I). So when I moved out in my own it felt like heaven but at the same time I felt like there were people still out there judging me. I’d order food at night when I knew there weren’t anyone around because I feared that my neighbors would judge/resent me for buying so much food (that’s when I started hiding food). I met my husband, we dated for a while and got married. I informed him of the situation and that I was trying to get better but when I get stressed/overwhelmed I regress. He told me her understood and he’d help me in what ever way. So him and his family are outdoor people, like bike rides on their days off, marathons etc. Mine are not, my mother pretty much raised me to “stay in the house” so I get nervous doing new things (I told him about that too). We’ve been having A LOT of issues lately because whenever he’d go to work I’d order food (and not tell him but he gets food at work and doesn’t tell me either which I’m ok with) and he found out the other day and he was upset and wanted to look through my electronics and I told him no because he wanted to see how I was paying for it(I had an issue with this because the day my ex went through my phone was the day I knew the relationship was done and my father always told me I could use his cards so I do sometimes). He told he felt like I was hiding money from him and wanted to know why I was hiding the food from him. I was honest, I told him I hid it because I didn’t trust him to not shame me like my mother did and I didn’t feel comfortable telling him. He said it he wouldn’t do that but he confessed that he went through my emails and that’s how he found it(he use to do that to me, he’d go through my phone to see if I was cheating). I’m obviously leaving other factors out but I flat out told him, sometimes I eat so much unhealthy food because I hope that I pass and you’d find someone who can make you happy and that’s how I’ve been feeling lately and I can’t tell him that because I think he’s a little unstable for stuff like that. But deep down idk I guess I feel trapped. So AITA.