Hello! So I (19f) can't tell if I fucked up or not. My best friend (26f) is my ex boss and we got really close while working at our previous company. We both recently quit because of reasons I do not have the time or energy to get into. We decided to finally have a sleepover this past Friday up until today. For context, I have never drank before. She offered me alcohol and I accepted it. I got really messed up after just one shot and we ended up drinking even more. I can't remember how we got to it but we ended up making out a lot and I fucked her. I had a nice time and I think she did too. We never really talked about it. She is not gay but she likes me as a friend and likes kissing me. I am queer but I only like her as a friend. However I think she's hot and I'm fine with being friends with benefits.

Here's where I think I messed up. The next day we drank again. We both talked about wanting a dick and she had a guy she fucks regularly come over. He (31M) was also one of my ex bosses. She would go back and forth between being fine with me having sex with him and getting jealous because he is hers. I couldn't figure out if it was okay or not with her. I think she said that she was okay with it after a bit of back and forth. I was like 6 shots deep. Eventually when they finished having sex me and him snuck away from her and had sex in her closet. When we finished we went back to the bed and she was asleep. We talked for a while and had sex again right next to her.

After that he couldn't find his airpods case and ended up having to come back the next morning. She was asleep on them. When I woke up I was still drunk and so was she. We drank even more that morning before he came back. We all ended up cuddling and she fell asleep on him. I sucked him off while she slept on him. We eventually ended up going to her living room and he fucked me again there. He left and I went back to sleep with her. When I woke up she asked what happened and if me and him fucked. I said yes. She asked for details and I stupidly told her the details of that mornings sex instead of last night's sex. My head was fuzzy and I just let it slip. She got really pissed about it and ended up kicking me out after a while of trying to talk through it. She told me I could have sex with him but she is still mad about me doing it. I did not initiate any of it. He was always the one who initiated. I dont know if I'm the one who fucked up or if she is. Am I the asshole?