I (21M) have been grappling with my emotional wellbeing and regulation for a while now. I was playing a game with my brother (22M) and got upset, so I threw my controller, screamed, and ripped up my shirt. I wasn't directing this anger at him of course, I was just frustrated at the game. I understand this seems like an overreaction, but it was a culmination of a lot of things. I recently lost my car, and lost my job, and have been aimless and extremely depressed. I fully admit I have anger problems and a lack of control sometimes. I'm in therapy, I'm starting medication, I'm trying.

We didn't talk for a few days. I eventually apologized to him, and he told me he wanted to move out. He never said the reason but it was obviously because of me. He specified that he wanted to move out without me.

He's my only close family left. I went no contact with my parents over a year ago, and the rest of my family I don't speak to that much. Once he leaves, I'll be all alone. He still speaks to my parents regularly, but I'll be left with no one. I feel like he's given up on me. I don't blame him for it, but it hurts so bad. We've gone through everything together. He matters to me more than anyone else in the world. I don't understand how he can give that up because I made one mistake. Especially because he knows all the pain I've gone through my whole life. I just want to know if I'm a bad person for what I did. I don't understand what to do when it feels like I'm losing everything and everyone that matters to me.