I don’t expect anyone to read this but here you go: I 27(F) planned a trip to South Korea which had been a dream of mine for a long time. I originally planned to go with my mom as she wanted to go more than I did. We did not include my dad because he is an above the knee amputee and we knew Korea would be a lot of walking and stairs. Now my dad is more active than the normal handicapped person with his prosthetic however he has had days where too much walking causes sores on his stump that leaves him laid up for days sometimes. Once he knew we were serious about going to South Korea he was insistent on joining us. We tried to explain to him what would be involved but my dad is the most stubborn person and he wasn’t having any talk of him not coming. I do understand he doesn’t want to let his disability allow him to miss out on life but my mom and I both knew him coming would make the trip less fun as we would be worried about him the whole time. I hate to say that but I can’t help my anxiety. Adding to it is the fact that he did zero research on Korea so I feel responsible for informing him about everything: the recycling, etiquette, etc. My mom isn’t as bad but I already have a hard enough time traveling with her as well. Not sure how else to put this but it sometimes feels like she turns her brain off when she’s with me because she just trusts that I know what I’m doing. That’s nice and all but the pressure of feeling responsible for her and my dad is a lot for me to take. I have bad anxiety already and having them around doesn’t help at all. So now here we are in Korea for 3 1/2 weeks. I’m on day 11 and have never wanted to go home so bad in my life. Tbh I wanted to go home after just 5 days. It has nothing to do with Korea itself but being with my parents. I will admit the language barrier has me feeling awful that I didn’t learn more Korean and has me anxious already but it’s amplified by my parents. Idk why but my friends seem to instill a calm in me and my parents just don’t. They annoy me with everything (especially my dad) and I just know if I was with friends I would be having a better time. I hate that I feel this way and want to feel more grateful for having this experience with my parents as I know plenty of people would do anything to be in my shoes. I’m left most days with a lump in my throat and feeling nauseous from all the anxiety and being overwhelmed. I’m not on any anxiety medication and I left my CBD gummies at home because I wasn’t sure about tsa. I just wanted to get this off my chest and if someone does happen to read this please share if you have felt the same way before. Thank you for anyone listening and any suggestions on lowering anxiety would be much appreciated. 🙏🏻