I might post this on amitheasshole maybe. Basically my friends and I are F16. There's three of us. We have our GCSEs in less than a month's time.

I have been having increasing needs for reassurance. Keep asking them whether they like me, if they're mad at me, if they like each other/their other friends more than they like me. I asked them about it late August last year and they were so sweet about it, and so kind. They said they would start texting on our GC more but that died out. Anyways they did make an effort to change.

Then in late October, they started thinking I hated them. We talked it out however and we were all good for a while.

Until this year. I don't know what's happened but my paranoia and doubts and worry have taken a turn for the worse. Somehow now everything they did was a sign they didn't like me, even if we were actively hanging out. One of them, S, and I hang out a *lot* even outside of the trio. Because the other one, T is always busy/has parent issues. Despite all that, I couldn't trust our good times and kept doubting whether S and T actually wanted me around.

S and T are in a mutual friend group which I am not *really* a part of, which is a cause for more insecurity. S has this habit of posting her chats/convos with others on her story, and she never posts mine (but does often post our hangout pictures) and from these screenshots it looks like S and T talk to each other + one other friend way more than they talk to me, even though this trio is and has been S and T's main trio for years.

I asked them about it again and they basically said they didn't text me a lot because I had said I was a bad texter. Admittedly, I had. But I had asked them to talk more, in August even, and it fizzled. Actually, we have been talking since then still, but I don't know why it feels like I'm always the one texting first.

Annnnd then the break. Along with this response, they said they'd be taking a break from the trio for a month until our GCSEs are over. I messaged back saying I was sorry and that I'd reel it in. They said that I needed this break as much as they did; that I should focus on my studies and stop worrying about whether we were texting or not. I was like, what if we actually drift apart from this break? They said that they loved me and weren't going anywhere. I just can't trust it for some reason. S removed me from her story. T doesn't post all that much anyway. I can trust T to come back to me because we've been each others' friends for the longest time, and were each others' first friends. I don't know why it's so much more difficult to accept S's reassurance. They obviously like their other friends more; but I can't blame them because I've been so draining clearly.

But ughhhh. AITA in this situation? Any advice? How do I get through this break?

Edit: another thing that is major I guess is my FOMO. maybe that's why whenever S posts these screenshots it freaks me out because I've missed out on some 'connection-making'/inside joke that I'm now not a part of, but both S and T are.