Me (19F) and my boyfriend (19M) have been dating for almost 6 years. We’ve been in a long-distance relationship for the past two years since he left for university. Things got really rocky when he cheated on me not long after moving. He got emotionally involved with another girl—talked to her all day and night, went out of his way to impress her with help from his friends. It wasn't a minor mistake, it went on for a while and completely shattered my trust.

I broke up with him after finding out, but eventually gave in and we got back together. It took nearly a year for me to trust him again, but I tried. Things started to feel somewhat normal again… until about three months ago.

That’s when I found out he had been subscribing to OnlyFans and other similar sites. When I confronted him, he said he was just curious and swore he didn’t do anything with the pictures. He had even blocked one of the creators, which might be true, but the fact that he was doing that behind my back again broke something in me. He cried, begged me to stay, and promised it didn’t mean anything.

Since then, he’s been trying really hard. He orders food for me all the time, sends me flowers, always checks in, and really puts in effort to make me happy. But the truth is… I just don’t feel the same anymore.

I don’t make time for him like I used to, I don’t miss him throughout the day, and I barely feel anything when I look at his pictures or hear his voice. I think I’ve emotionally checked out. I’ve even started feeling attracted to other guys, which never happened before.

The only part of the relationship I still enjoy is the attention, but I know that’s not fair to him. He’s trying now, but I’m not.

AITA for not treating him the way I used to and staying in the relationship even though I think I’ve lost feelings?