(for background) my grandma opened her own church when i (20f) was in about 5th grade. my grandmother is known for saying subliminal “sins” directly at certain people in the audience during service.

When i was in 6th grade i had a best friend we’ll call ana. i’d go to her house about every weekend but we decided to go to mine which meant we had to go to church. during this service i remember my grandma saying how being gay was a sin but i didn’t think to much of it. after the service ana and i were sitting waiting for everyone to finish talking when my mom and grandma came up to us with a finger pulse oximeter and said they wanted to ask us questions. they said that it was a sin to lie in the house of god then proceeded to ask if i was gay. at the time i was confused myself about what i liked but i was too afraid to tell them i had even thought about girls that way. i sat there and cried while they grilled me in front of my friend about why i couldn’t answer the question.

fast forward to my freshman year of high school was 15, had a girlfriend, and came out to my parents bout being a lesbian by now. my grandmother came over and my parents were not there. so asked her “grandma do you know i like girls?” and i just remember how her face turned and she told me how i was “unnatural”. i can’t tell you how much that crushed me.

since then i’ve joined her zoom services to show “support” but i haven’t joined in about a year or two. she just started doing in person services again but idk how to feel about going

so AITA?