i never really thought i’d post on reddit, i only really downloaded it to read the full versions of post tiktok only post one or two parts of.

for context, this is my first real relationship, and i (17f) and my boyfriend (18m) have been together for around 6 months. this isn’t his first relationship, but he knows it’s mine and has been really great with his patience on the more intimate side of things, because i didn’t feel ready.

a few nights ago (friday) i was at his apartment (he works, i’m still in school) and one thing led to another and we hooked up. i wouldn’t say i regretted it, but i definitely didn’t enjoy it. i’m not sure if it was him, or if it’s just not something i enjoy, but he could see there was something off.

when he asked me what was wrong, i told him honestly and i think he may have took it personally? i mean, i can understand why, but i hadn’t meant to hurt his feelings. but then he got a little mad and asked if i wouldn’t sleep with him again. and i told him, again, honestly, that i probably wouldn’t want too for a while, no. and he got pretty mad and said as his girlfriend, it was my “job” to please him, or he’d find somebody else that would.

the argument went on for a while, so i called my mom (i don’t drive) and she took me home. me and my boyfriend haven’t really spoken since, he did message me on sunday morning and said that i had really hurt his feelings and that, because i was such a bitch, he needed some time. and it just made me feel really bad, i guess.

i’m not really sure where to go from here, because i don’t want to cross the line and message him when he’s told me not too. i’d spoken to one of my friends (18f) about it, and she told me to just “go through the motions” for him, if i actually liked him. and i can’t tell if i’m just overthinking this. aita?