Okay do for some back story, when I was love blinded by this boy right? Her SA'd me, when we was 12/13 he kissed a 9 yr old, showed my younger brothers 🍆👄/🍆🍑/🍆😺 when they was in 7/8th grades and 5/6th grades since they're Irish twins, he's turning my family against each other, he cheated on me (I still gave him more chances after that), he dated my friends behind my back, and he was telling everyone that I asked him out and he said no bc he had a girlfriend. KEEP IN MIND; I never once asked him out, NOR. Did I know about him being taken so I was hypers3x@al and I was in the middle of 🤞🏻😺 I'm his basement when my family was living with him at the time till he sister wanted to talk to me and js vent and all of that and since she was my best friend before js bc we wasn't now didn't mean I was gonna put my 😺🤞🏻 session over her venting so she vented to me and all of that right? She got to the part where she told me thaty ex was telling everyone that I asked him out and he said no bc he had a gf at the time and ion gonna hold anyone I didn't believe her at the time bc I didn't physically hear it but I showed her screen shots anyway bc what if she was telling the truth? So I showed her screenshot between him and I bc he never told me shit abt him being taken and I sure as hell never asked him out but there was this one time where he was fat shaming me so I ate in the bathroom and I could you not thisan whore was telling my youngest brother what his sister told me so now I heard ts with my own ears but I overreacted when I ignored him and rushed to the basement to cry bc I finally caught him myself for telling ppl ts? He even started telling ppl at our school and it got to my old bsf and she told me so I finally told my mom my ex was lying on me and so I didn't want to go back over there bc he physically makes me sick to my stomach. Fast forward to when he apologies, it sounded hella half assed and I didn't want to talk to him at all bc of the lies he was lying on me so when he apologized I didn't believe shit for a while bc he knew wtf he was going, hes old enough. Fast forward to when my cat gives birth, keep in mind he like my cat but he wanted one of my cats kittens and he was showing his new girl the kittens then I told my mom to tell him I do not want his girl around the kittens since for 1.) He's not getting a kitten and for 2.) I have no idea who his girl is so all ik she could be an animal abuser. My mom told me he said he didn't deserve that and neither does his girlfriend like bitch???? He's done so much shit that fucked me up like I had 3 seizures over him because he hurt me and I loved him. THREE. But he doesn't deserve how I'm acting to him?? Like bro I'm only being nice to him right now and I forgot to mention that on my birthday this year we got back together and three days after we got back tgr (on my birthday) we broke up right? 9 days after we broke up he texts me and tells me he moved on. ONLY AFTER NINE FUCKEN DAYS. So obviously I had a seizure after he told me that, I literally loved him more than myself that I gave up my self respect, my dignity for him. And him saying his girl don't deserve how I'm acting either, it doesn't matter if she does or doesn't deserve it or not at the end of the day that adult cat is still my baby and technically as those kittens grandma I feel as if what my word goes bc my cat don't trust anyone other than me like she's actually my shadow. I do not care if his girl does or doesn't deserve now I'm acting I feel as if I should at least be around when she's around them kittens so that my adult cat doesn't get uncomfortable with a whole ass stranger touching her offspring and since my cat is already a rescue cat and she was faral before idk how she's gonna act with random ass strangers coming up to her kittens and touching them none stop. I feel like I'm overreacting a little bit but I really don't care if I am I love my cat like she was my own child okay? If he had a child and some stranger just came up to his child he wouldn't like that now would he?