TLDR at the bottom:

I’m 5 months postpartum with my second baby and my first is 2 years old. With my first I had some bad PPD, like staring at my husband’s glock type PPD. I told my friends about it and eventually went to therapy. Things got better as baby got easier. Unfortunately around then I got pregnant again despite contraception.

This round of postpartum just has me mad a lot of the time. I’m so overwhelmed and overstimulated. I’m a SAHM and my husband works from home but really needs to be on his computer the whole time. I also have autism to provide some context. The rage has gotten to the point where I want to be violent. So I made an appointment to go back to therapy.

My oldest friend, who doesn’t have kids, is currently in therapy so I asked her “where do you think the line is between honesty and legal intervention in this case?” I know where it is with su1c1de from my last experience. I told her that sometimes I’m so mad I wanna bash my kids heads type of mad. I never do anything but the fact that my blood boils that hot scares me so to therapy I am going. First appointment is in a couple weeks.

Well we go back and forth for a bit and she tells me to be honest and if they wanna take my kids it’s probably for the best. I understand where she’s coming from but I’m worried something terrible would happen for sure if they were taken away. Anyways a bit abruptly she tells me something along the lines of “I’m not really surprised by this you were always somebody I thought would abuse their kids. I can’t believe you texted me this nonchalantly and are asking me to help you lie so your kids won’t be taken”.

I was so startled and hurt that all I said was “I know how this sounds I’m just trying to gauge how normal this is, sorry.” Well a few hours later CPS comes to my house. I answer all their questions and my husband is there too. They tell us since I’m seeking counseling and my husband is always home likely the case will be closed and we’ll get a letter in the mail.

Word can’t express how betrayed and hurt I felt by this. I sort of get where she was coming from but feel like there were so many other routes she could have taken? She could’ve called my husband first to see if he knew anything (which he does). Jumping straight to trying to get my kids taken feels so extreme. AITAH for being upset about this?

TLDR: opened up about having some bad postpartum rage to a friend and she called CPS on me