16 F) A year ago we moved to Alabaman from texas. My stepfather lived there before us for 5 months as his job was the reason for the move. Once we got there the house was disgusting, i wanted to chill after a 15 hour drive but no! There were maggots in the microwave, SOMEHOW egg on the ceiling?? Before moving he never helped clean up anyway. Skip a few months I get put into therapy by my mom, she’s been worried about my mental for a while after an incident in middle school. I could finally have some relief, Though my stepfather just doesn’t like seeing anyone happy. As practice, i decided to start telling people how they make me feel because my therapist asked me to.

So, I started my period the night before and needed pads the next day.. I asked my stepdad before hand to take me to get pads. Before that he took us to get food. but on our way back i realized he’s driving home and said: “Are we going to get pads still?” He doesn’t answer for a second and says: “no?” i ask him why and that i needed some and he tells me i should have reminded him, and he keeps driving. Now, i could be in the wrong for this but i reply with: “It’s literally not my fault you forgot, i need pads.” He says: “not with that attitude, you don’t” After that i started raising my voice because he was still driving home and i needed pads. He stopped the car and got out, threatened to hit me before i called my mother and had her calm me down. I didn’t talk to him for a few days before I decided to tell him how i felt, so my mom gets us together in a room and i tell him that i felt it was rude, and selfish that he kept driving when i told him i needed pads. He spoke over me with talk about being disrespectful about it. Not listening to my argument at all.

now fast forward to recent events we’re back in texas. we had a whole argument about something stupid im not going into because it’s that fucking dumb. he decides to come upstairs as I call my mom again before he tries to put hands on me. He tries to take it so i start kicking him :/ he still got it and started lying to my mom on the phone, after that i told her to listen on our camera for it caught everything he said. the next day my mom tells him to go upstairs and apologize to me. He says sorry, But that i need to fix my attitude and that he doesn’t care about how I feel because im a child. I scream at him and tell him to get out and that he’s the reason I cut myself and that if i ever kill myself he’d go on my note. He’s been a lot nicer but yeah come at me for that and i’m fucking sorry, i still feel bad.

But to sum this all up im tired of doing stuff for him just to be disrespected and emotionally abused. He’s constantly yelling, nobody can tell him shit! He’ll yell at my younger siblings for dropping a glass and call them “stupid and retarded” then he’ll threaten me for telling my mom about it. I just don’t get it. My older step siblings have definitely been effected by his actions, and i refuse to have my younger siblings stressed by a grown man who relies on his children to clean up after him be depressed by his thoughtless remarks and behaviors. I could go on all day about this but I really need advice.

My mom told me, “people like him don’t change” and I believe her. My relationship with my stepdad is so awkward. He doesn’t call me by my name ever, i feel like he hates me. My memories as a kid with him all i felt was scared because he’d yell at me for the littlest stuff, now he’s pissed because i don’t let him scream in my face anymore. I yell back. I ignore him occasionally if he asks me to do a chore because there could be dishes in the sink for days. YES he works but he also spends hours at the gym, leaving the shit for us. Make this make since am I TAH, i want honesty and advice.

and sorry if this post has spell or time errors