I don't really expect to read this, but I'm just ranting here to get my thoughts out.

So basically a couple months ago some weird stuff went down. Basically my friends and I were hanging out and talking about the purge, you know that movie where one night of the year there's no law.

Anyways I was saying it's bad because rich people can afford protection and all that, but the less fortunate get the brunt of it all and, basically die. And my ex friend said "I actually think the purge would be great. Sometimes poor people have to die so the rich people can thrive" (i asked her a bunch of times if she was being serious. She was dead serious.)

I was shocked. So backstory - me and the ex friend are both very well off, but some of the people there are not (not in a bad way or anything - I was born into money so its not like I'm super deserving)

Anyways I said that's horrible and basically lashed out at her. That friend had also been kind of toxic over the years, and said some other mean stuff like basically saying my life was worth nothing lol. And she also never apologized for anything, and blamed me whenever I got mad that she insulted me. So yeah, I basically let out all my anger in that moment and kind of yelled at her.

Anyways a few weeks later I calmed down and apologized for yelling, but she basically brushed it off.

I didn't really want to be friends with her, so I basically just forgot about her and went on with my life.

So anyways I was talking with my friend today, and the topic of ex friend came up, and my friend was completely on her side.

She was saying how if those are the only reasons I don't like her, then I'm crazy. For the record, this friend knows the kind of stuff ex friend said to me.

So I was like "She literally said that poor people should die."

And friend was like "well it's not like her opinion is going to affect anything"

But I mean, it's a mindset right? Like actually thinking that...

And then my friend said that she only thinks those things because of her parents, and that it was okay for the ex friend to insult me because she has problems at home.

I always supported ex friend though. I knew about that, and I would send her funny videos and messages to make her feel better and talked to her too. I don't know what I did wrong.

So I kind of feel like a bad person, you know? I feel like I shouldn't have gotten mad at her because of that, and her opinion is really insignificant in the grand scheme of things. Also she could be a nice person sometimes.

I don't know, I just feel like a bad person for ending the friendship...