For some background information I am F(17) and he is M(17). Currently we are dating long distance and we haven’t really met up yet since the relationship is still in its early stages.

When we first made it official, he was just the absolute sweetest guy I’ve ever been with and we were calling most days or whenever possible. But recently it feels like he’s getting more and more distant since the school holidays started. He’s always sleeping or gaming and taking ages to reply and I’m talking anywhere from 30mins to a few hours. When I brought it up to him he told me to “stop getting mad at me for sleeping”. The thing is whenever he’s “sleeping” his account says it’s online.

Usually I wouldn’t be mad at him during the school term because we’re both busy but neither of us have any classes or homework. Usually I tell him if I’m doing anything that’ll keep me busy for long periods of time but he never seems to do so. He’ll be all “I’m so sorry I was sleeping/busy” and at the start I was like “algs/np, what were you doing?” But now idk it’s just led to not really believe that he’s being sincere. Every confrontation just leads him to get mad at me for wanting his attention and he just gives me the silent treatment.

I constantly have to almost beg him not to leave me on read or delivered for long periods of time because it gives me a lot of anxiety. He always just says “sorry” and leaves it at that. I know he’s not a cheater but it feels as though he’s lost interest in me. After all these arguments I just feel like maybe I’m the asshole for getting mad at him because of this. Ik I can be a bit too clingy at times but I’ve always told him to tell me when I get “too much” but he’s never even said anything at all. From the start I’ve made it clear that I value clear communication and at first he respected that but now it just no longer feels that way and now I feel like shit cuz I feel like I’ve driven him away

Some of y’all might be thinking like don’t I have other people to talk to? And the answer is no. I don’t have any close friends. I don’t think I’ve been asked to hang out for over two years now so he’s pretty the only person I talk to other than my parents. But he doesn’t seem to understand that it’s hard for me to make friends and I’m not a social person and I hate going out.

I don’t want to dump him but it just feels like I’m the only person putting any effort into this relationship. I feel like I’m going crazy because of all this so yeah. Am I the asshole??