i (22f) found out within the last week that my three best friends (24f, 26f, & 27f) are all pregnant! they are all between four & eight weeks now, & are due within a month of one another. i am beyond excited for them, their husbands & boyfriends, & also myself (i’m going to be an auntie, three times!). we’ve all been close friends for the past four years, & have done so much growing together. we’ve been through it all together: breakups, bad haircuts, moves, weddings, funerals, miscarriages, & more. i am so very blessed to have these women in my life, & to be sharing in this joy.

but a dark little part of myself is terribly upset. i feel a mixture of jealousy, fear that things are changing, & anxiety that i am going to be left behind. i have an amazing boyfriend of two years whom i live with. we have been discussing engagement & marriage, but are obviously nowhere near ready to have a baby. they are going to get to have baby showers together, put together birth plans, & go shopping. they will be able to relate to one another, & go through this journey together. when i do get married, they’ll be juggling toddlers & understandably may not have time to participate in bridal showers, bachelorettes, & a full wedding. i can’t help but feel left out & left behind, which is so silly & immature. this is a wonderful, exciting time for them. i don’t want to bring it up & seem like i am making it all about me when this couldn’t be less about me. i want to be there for them, supportive, & as involved as possible with no lingering “woe is me” thoughts.

aitah for being upset? has anyone else been in this position before? any tips to process & move through it? i don’t know what to do.