Well, here we are.

Millennial wife, married for 4 years. We made a vow under God for better and for worse… but what can I do when it’s always been worse?

My husband biggest and greatest (and on going) complaint is that I am not a homemaker.

To my defense- I never claimed to be.

I know my faults. I very self seldom cook and I typically don’t eat very much.

I admit, my cleaning contribution could be better!

However, in my opinion- the house is not in disarray nor chaos.

When you have a baby in the home, yes there may be times where I leave a sock or wipe out as I’m the primary caretaker and literally us moms know that our focus is just on making sure our little human is alive and well.

I’m not focused on the one dish in the sink or did I mop the floors today.

As a peace offering- I suggested we hire cleaners and meal prep service in which he declined.

Why does it matter who does the house work as long as it’s get done?

My small business profits brings home over triple his annual salary.

He minimizes my financial contribution but when it comes to his insane car note, luxury items, home remodeling, and etc. guess who pays for it?

I manage absolutely everything for our child, appointments, schooling, activities, etc.

Do I get date nights? No.

Do I feel like I have a roommate? Constantly.

I have no grounds for divorce. There’s no cheating, no abuse, nothing like that.

We’ve done Christian marriage counseling, read our bible plans, etc.

Still, I’m miserable.

I just married the wrong person and to be honest I don’t want to break Gods covenant just because I hate my husband.

We haven’t spoken in several weeks and I’m sure this silence will continue in our home.

So.. do I just live in agony?