ok, i (22f) have this one roommate(21f), we're not on bad terms exactly as she didn't do anything particularly wrong to me , this is a solo feeling, and the thing is i just can't bring myself to accept her as a person, she is not a bad person as far as i know, but has some traits that i dislike, like she sometimes toss around her stuff for days before cleaning, doesn't stick to cleaning schedules (but i can't set her off for that as I'm a missy person myself) and doesn't seem to be a responsible person generally, like she usually used to ask me to take calls for her food orders, or deal with charging our bills, or anything that requires talking to someone as she claims "they can't understand her accent" which i think is just an excuse for her social anxiety that she's clearly not trying to improve, and sometimes want us to just make her decisions for her when her mom isn't available ig, all this along with her talking habits, she talks a LOT, which is something i doesn't like in people in general, especially when all the talking is empty with no value whatsoever, and guess what? 99% of her talking are like that, ++ gossiping, she'll sometimes talks to herself loudly commenting on some topic to draw my attention into talking, i obviously ignored it most of the time, and one time i actually asked her to shut for a bit as i want to eat and watch in peace.

few days ago i had an exam, and our other 2 roommate where gone on a vacation, so it was just me and her alone in the apartment for some time, during those days i locked myself in my room, got out once or twice a day for bathroom, and made a lunch box with all the snacks for the day so i didn't have to see her at all, or minimise it as much as possible, and ignored her nocks for days, my bestie said that it was a bit rude, but am i wring tho?? like i don't want anything from her, we don't have to be friends just because we're roommates, all i want from us is to co-exist, and she doesn't seem like she's understanding any clue atp.

i feel pretty pathetic and guilty for hating someone who have never done anything bad to me this much, like is there something wrong with me? i also struggled and still with saying "no" and tend to focus on fixing people struggle and neglect my own needs and i can't afford to do ts rn, AITAH?