I (30f) and my bf (34m) were supposed to hang out. He said he needed me but we live 2 hours away, I told him to come and I will get a hotel since my apartment is under construction and I am staying with my mom and my lil brother on their couch... A thousand things went wrong...

1. The reservation was put down for a future date and not what I asked, hotel refuses to change it, so I had to call the 3rd party in charge, for them to yell at them to change it. I had to repay money I didn't have for the rebooking and wait for the refund to come back to me, so after driving an hour to the hotel, speaking to multiple people I find out I left my bank card at home... So I had to drive all the way back And then when I got back, I fell hard and landed on rocks and a sharp throny bush, which cut and bruised my leg, thigh,wrists and my stomach

2. My bf said it was too late to come Sunday so we made plans for Monday morning, however that turned in to afternoon to 730pm...due to his grandma's caretaker not coming on time and then his mom and aunt surprising him a family dinner which he did face time from

3. I was woken up at 1130 (7hours after checking) to a strange man coming in to my hotel where I was sleeping almost 75% naked and he tried to take me out of the bed because he said I did not pay for another night, after getting him out of my hotel after explaining, I went to the restroom and 5 mins later he tried to come back and do the same thing but he was not able to because I stopped the door in time (yes I told him I was not dressed) he then argued with me, I called the front desk and she argued with me too I then had to go to the actual lobby in very revealing clothes by force, they yelled at me, called me names, then looked down at me because they thought I could not afford another 65 for the night, I paid it and went back...not before the main guy told me if he had known I would be this much trouble he wouldn't of given me a room. I had to call my mom in tears and feeling half naked trying to cover myself up in a cardigan I was able to grab before leaving the room.

Now it's 1230am Tuesday, check out is at 11am. My boyfriend never showed up and has went MIA since 830pm Monday. Last thing he said was that there was a semi truck crash blocking the highway and never responded after that. I sent texts to multiple places, calling and nothing, I feel like an asshole to be sitting wishing something bad happened to him and that's the reason he's not here and not because I spent 350 of rent money I thought I was gonna get back just for him to no show no call and hurt me like this... Because what's the alternative I'm just the world's dumbest girlfriend who spent her rent money she doesn't have for a guy who can't even just sent a simple text he's not coming....after everything I just went through to get this and wasted my only one full day I had to take off of work to spend with him?

Am I wrong for feeling this way?