So, this is a long and complicated story. But, basically my parents live in two different places, despite not being divorced: My mom works in the city I grew up in, while my dad works at a farm in a village nearby. So, whenever my kom is done with her job, she goes to my dad in the village.

In the city, we live in the house of my maternal grandpa. He has done a lot of good things throughout his life but he has also been kind of an asshole to everybody. He helped everyone in the family to get a house in the city, but not my parents. He keeps yapping all the time, monopolising any discussion and constantly making it about his view. He never seems to listen to anyone, but himself and can't realise that he is boring and annoying towards everybody. And if he drinks, and he used to do that quite a lot, he has even more energy to talk.

When my grandma died (I was in the 4th grade) he blamed me for it, claiming she was too focused on me. Throughout my childhood I have experienced various levels of verbal abuse (constant yelling, scolding for every minor inconvenience, self victimising and so on). All the adults told me that he can no longer change and that I should just leave him the way he is. I hated him. I still do.

Now I'm 24 and there are many moments when I come back home and stay for prolounged periods of time due to some problems at the dorm in my uni city. My mom keeps scolding me for being so mean to him.

What she means by that is that I constantly avoid talking to him. If he's eating in the kitchen, I wait until he gets out to have my meals. If he asks me something, I answer very briefly. We rarely cross paths. Today, it was just the two of us in the house. During the whole day, we spoke twice.

I kinda feel like shit, and this is why I'm witing this. I feel bad for him, but I just can't listen to him anymore. It seems so unfair. Nobody ever had the guts to tell him the truth. Adults had the audacity to ask a LITERAL CHILD to be the grown up all the time. And now they want me to keep doing it with a smile on my face.