(WE WERE BOTH THE SAME AGE WHEN THIS HAPPENED WE WERE 12) so I got invited to game night with three of my friends. One is autistic and acts like a child but he's my friend so what choice do I have? Let's call him X. We were playing Mario kart and he won ONE round and made a really fucked up joke.

He was saying how me and my friends only exist to be under him and to be his slave and how he's better than us and we are worth nothing. Basically dehumanizing us. And I have anger issues, not to mention a taste for justice. But before he made those "jokes", he randomly said "You guys have no idea what I've been through in life." And we were all obviously uncomfortable so I said "Yeah, we all have been through some trauma." And he replied with, "But I've been through worse than all of you" And this really pissed me off because comparing trauma to anyone is very fucked up and as coming from someone who has been through a fair share of trauma, this triggered me, obviously. But I stayed calm for the sake of my friends.

Keep in mind, the other 2 friends I've known my whole life. He was pissing me off by saying all these things and I was already exhausted from him annoying all of us and being rude like telling me to shut up and go away with his ring finger up that looked like the "Fuck you" sign, as well as not leaving one of my friends alone and kept looming over the friend weirdly. So at that point I was fed up. Normally I would've stayed calm but I hadn't gotten sleep for a week straight and hadn't had any social interaction (Not that that's an excuse), but I snapped the first time when he made a snarky joke to his parents and they were offended.

So when they said "X, that's not a funny joke" X said, "Oh come on, it's just a funny joke." so i said, looking him straight in the eye, "Then why isn't anyone laughing?" So fast forward to when he was making the dehumanizing jokes, I kept yelling over him "X, sit down. SIT DOWN!" and then this bitch covered my mouth, giggling, leaning over, and saying "Stop talking, I'm talking" That's when I lost it. I kicked him hard in the gut, causing him to fall back and repeating "Ow". Keep in mind, his parents never did anything to stop this, but they didn't know because we were in a different room. My mom says I'm not the asshole but I need opinions. Am I the asshole?

Ok so most of you think I'm the asshole and yeah I get it. I didn't react the way I should have, but he wasn't respecting my personal space and at first I tried to use words, but he wouldn't stop touching me. I know it isn't an excuse but I have ptsd from abuse in the past, and this triggered me. Keep in mind, he was dehumanizing me and I don't care what it takes to make him stop. Oh and by the way we are the same age, I didn't kick a 8 year old, don't worry. I grew up beig told to fight back by my abuser, so that's why I reacted like it. I'm sorry to everyone in this situation, I know I'm the asshole but I was honestly scared because he also threatened to smash my skull into the floor and this dude is STRONG. I personally don't think he has the excuse to act that way because he's autistic.