She never lets me go out with my friends. There’s always some reason, she never directly says it, but always 100% implies. Passive aggressively threatens if I do go out, then give me permission, and when I don’t go, she’s like “Well I told you to go it’s not my fault”

She has a colourful history of verbally abusing me in public and in front of friends, and I don’t want her to tag along for this plan I made with my friends, cuz it’s super important because we will all be leaving for different countries soon, and for the past 8 months of me dating her, I could never enjoy with them. They all know her, and it’s a big fun plan, but I simply don’t want her to come, and she wants to.

I wont deny that what she’s doing is toxic and I should breakup, I know all that. She’s not a good gf and is extremely toxic half of the times, things are good as long as I shut up and be her bitch. I’m with her because I’m scared for her. She’s not in the right mental state rn, and she has harmed herself before when I did stand my ground during arguments. I also know that it’s not my responsibility to fix her, it’s just my conscience that’s not letting me. I loathe her sometimes, I’m helpless. She’s already demanded that I take her out. But I’m not going to, and she’s gonna tell all our mutuals about it as she loves to advertise our arguments and frame me in front of her friends. But am I the asshole?