What would you do if you were in my situation? Any advice is appreciated. we have been online friends for over an year who traumabonded from the start. The reason I blocked him - One day he forced me to send a video of me exercising since he send a video of himself. And on top of it, he was defending himself and making it seem like not a big deal when I expressed that I wasn't comfortable with that and to not force it. Then I remembered he saved my snaps without my permission so had a talk about it and he unsaved them immediately. 2 of my other friends did the same now that I think about it. Is this normal?

From his pov - since we already saw each other through video calls, it's not a big deal to motivate each other with fitness.

What should I do? He sees the friendship. Due to my mindset, I'm scared of friendships, I see it more as emotional support. I respect and love them a lot. It doesn't feel fair to either of us I thought. They prefer to text everyday and I want to text once in a while now. They said, they won't play these games with me if we could text everyday. Their birthday is approaching soon and I don't know what to do now. They have done so much for me and they are the main reason my mental health improved a lot and I somewhat am having a normal life. We have a very deep bond. I miss them everyday. But sometimes I feel peaceful not interacting with them since I am struggling to text everyday and due to fear of my parents finding out, I used to be scared everyday. My parents are not supportive of online stuff. But mainly I feel peaceful because I don't have to disagree with anyone or defend myself like last time. It feels good to be by myself but I do miss what we had before all this. It feels embarrassing and awkward after everything that happened but I don't understand why I still want to talk to them and not let it go as an experience I had and move on. Any advice would be appreciated.