About almost year ago my dad got diagnosed with cancer, during all his treatments i was always optimistic. My friend group of about 4 other girls were by my side and i hung out and listened to all their problems during this time, i listened to them talk about guy drama and stuff i genuinely didn’t really care about at the time but i just wanted to be a good friend. After my dad died they all came to the funeral and were showing a lot of support. Im still young im in school and i missed out on about a month of lessons after this, during this time i was still i guess in a denial phase and i still had energy and would talk normally to my friends after i came back to school which i guess made it seem like i was okay. About a month after this phase it hit me hard, that i was never going to see my dad again. I kind of completely shut down after being back in school for a month my body started to constantly get sick i was like this for about a month too. Constant headaches, nausea, dizziness, discomfort, stomachaches ect.. obviously i was not in school during this, so more time away from my friends. Fast forwarding to now, my friends constantly treat me like im a bargain. They have made their own jokes, their own friends, relationship drama ect.. also were a friend group of 5 so im now constantly the one beinh left alone to sit in class. They never invite me anywhere they even opened new group chats without me. One day i checked their location after already mentioning the being left out thing, the first time i mentioned it they said “ we just didnt think you would come” “you have said no so many times we thought u didnt want to” and exuses like this to which i replied to by saying that i do want to hang out and all i want to do now is to try and slowly pick myself back up and get back to normal. So when i checked their location after a week of saying this and saw them together i texted one of them and asked why they wouldnt call, they said that im just not the same anymore and that i have changed and im just not interested in anything they have to say anymore and i dont talk. I tried to explain that i just couldn’t, but they dont get it and this is still going on. These girls were like my sisters i would sleep, eat, and rot with them now they argue on who sits with me each saying no im with __ today no i dont want to, right in front of me. Their exuse was “ were young and we dont knwo how to deal with this sort of thing its too hard” im sorry? What about me who went through it? Im shocked and I didnt expect this from them i mean obviously i was the one who pushed them away i guess but i was sick and greiving and i apologized for that which honestly i shouldnt have even done considering if they cared they would change when i tell them smth bothers me. In my eyes im not the asswhole but they seem to think so, so AITAH?