I (30F) had 3 serious/long relationships until now.

The three of them were good and healthy, the fist and second ending for external reasons: family prejudice on the first and moving too far away on the second. The last one was ended by me because despite liking them a lot, liking their family and having an overall good thing going on I started to resent the time I had for myself before.

All break ups were friendly and most casual and short affairs I had were also good, with only one really bad person that I quickly cut off.

All that for saying I had a pleasant time dating.

The thing is I rather be alone. It's good to have someone to share time and interests, but for me it's far better to have that time for myself.

I like to be my own person, I always enjoyed solitude, I spend too much energy on other people when dating and I never ever felt the need to have "someone there for me" that having my friends and family didn't cover.

That said, since my last break up I've been recieving some backlash from two of my friends. It started with them saying it's not a natural stance (I kind of don't care) and it shows something wrong in my emocional health (I feel fine and consider myself a good enough person), but it soon came to them saying my choices go directly agaist their own, like I'm implying they took the wrong path with marriage (I do not think that).

They asked me to compromise and give some sort of excuse when asked out/talking to our commom friends, for their husbands are less than thrilled with saying I rather be single.

I understand and tried it, but this ended up making a mess with a man who wanted to be with me and I stringing him along for almost a week just so I wouldn't tell him straight away I don't want to date, period, and as the final shit on this shitshow when I finally told him I just don't want to he spilled to one of my friend's husband and he came to talk me himself abou the disrespect that was putting it that bluntly.

So yeah, what do I do? These friends are very dear to me.