Yup, very confusing. But me, lets call me Jay, had a friend called Collie. I was friends with Collie for around 7 months, and just recently he said he liked me and asked me out. I hadnt been asked out before, and thought id give it a try since i really could picture us together (and lets dace it, before that i pictured us daying aswell). So, i said yes. And that made our mutual friend in our trio, Coco, very happy.

After maybe 2 weeks, i started to realise that i didnt actually like Collie like that, and felt really bad for leading him on. I seaeched it up and its called Limerence. I thought i liked him, but really i just liked the idea of dating someone. I felt really bad so i broke it off with him, and Coco didnt like that. She asked why i didnt just say no the first time, but i explained that i DID think i liked him, but didnt realise it would turn into what happened. She had a hige fight with me about it, and called it 'immature drama' and didnt want to deal with it because she was driving someone to visit her grandmas grave. She never told me that, and if she did i wouldntve said what happened then, but she didnt and put the blame on me for not knowing what she was doing. I also took a couple days telking her, as she was very quiet in our trio gc and i just asummed Collie had told her. They were closer than we were anyway. She then tried to tell me off for taking so long on telling her, but i also just went through that whole thing and felt realky bad and embarrassed. i decided to just apologise and ignore what happened, as i just wanted it to be left alone and didnt want to lose her as a friend.

Next few days are slow, i message her and she messages back. Not really any big convos. But one topic that does come up is us seeing Gracie Abrams next month, which she has ordered a dress for and ive ordered clothes for aswell. She is one of my favourite singers, and Coco went through the ticket war and got the tickets, so theyre in her name. And, for some of you who dont know what that means, is that i have to physically be with her to get through the gates, aswell as another reason that i dont really want to disclose for her privacy.

4 days ago, she messaged me saying she wasnt able to go to the concert as she was going to a plark memorial for her grandma the same day. During the day. the concert is at night. Can you see where im going with this?

She made me refund the tickets cause she was 'going too aswell'. Well. Guess what? She sent me my money back and blocked me. BLOCKED. I thiught it was weird that she was gonna refund her favourite artists (and when i mean favourite, i mean FAVOURITE) concert ticket for something thats happening during the day. By train, it doesnt take very long to get to the concert venue, so why would she cancel for something like that?

She promised me these tickets, i gave her my money in order for her to hold onto my ticket until the concert which is less than a month away. Which she already bought a dress for. Which shes been waiting forever for. Which IVE been waiting forever for.

i will bet my whole head of hair that its because of the 'breakup' that happened between me and Collie. The 'break up' that hapoened cause i couldnt control what i was feeling and didnt want to lead him on any more than i did. Im still young, im allowed to have mistakes in relationships! Im allowed to not be able to control my feelings! Im allowed to still be friends with a mutal person after a breakup who i met before Collie!

So, Am I The Asshole?