In context My boyfriend thinks that I am inefficient and I know this because he said his ex is the most efficient person he has been with. I agree with him she is very efficient.

I know I can do better but honestly he is soul draining. I am expected to cook for him (I make his breakfast and dinner) he usually makes his lunch. He said he wants me to be more consistent with salads and his green juice. But rushes me in the morning to get ready.

He wants me to get As in courses (which I know he will be disappointed). He also wants me to take interest in the BnB business by learning how to handle booking.com, prepare rooms, check inventory.

Plus be his personal reminder but keeping logs. I also have to keep in check with the accounts for the business and cottages. Little things like water plants everyday, keep our cottage that we live in clean.

Then I have my own expectations of myself I want a family soon, then I would want to be someone who is caring and actually meets him intellectually. He loves to read and I am trying to become a reader. He complains that I have not read his works. He constantly complains about it.

He keeps asking me if I am ready for a grown up relationship. However I never anticipated that being in a grown up relationship would be riddled being an assistant. I really try to be supportive but I fall off. It is so much to balance.

How can I balance this ? I will be working soon and honestly I think I will die.