Uggh where to begin.

I feel like today is just another one of those days where I am thinking wtf I am doing in my marriage.

Context:

Together for 12 years, married for almost 3.

We're both in our thirties and have a 1 yr old child.

My wife is amazing, I really do love her and our daughter is the greatest thing that has ever happened to me/us. Anyone looking from the outside in would think we have it all, but it couldn't be further from the truth.

I'm very fortunate to have done well in my career, we have everything we need and my wife hasn't had to work since our daughter was born, nor does she need to go back. She wants to get back into work, which I totally support and really admire.

Over the last six months however, there just CONSTANTLY seems to be something I need to work on.

When I get to the point where my wife acknowledges things are better with one thing, then comes the next thing.

• One day it's I am too sexual
• The next day it's not enough
• Today I am the greatest daddy / husband ever
• Tomorrow I am a shit husband
• One day she's happy with how she looks
• I work too much
• I should be working more instead of spending time with them during the day
• The next day she "hates herself" as she just told me 30 minutes ago before she stormed out of the house. That was after another argument yesterday about our sex life being too much for her.
• Over the weekend she was in amazing spirits after spending time with friends and us going on a family day out & buying her a new car.
• Today she "never gets time for herself" and "doesn't know what she's doing anymore with us"

This is despite my working from home, which allows me the flexibility to spend time with my daughter anytime she wants to go to gym (4 days a week), spend time with her friends, go have drinks with her mum and sister, go shopping, general alone time everyday when I take my daughter out for a big walk every afternoon... anything she wants which I continuously encourage.

There is so much more, but I am just feeling completely and utterly lost right now. I dote over my wife, constantly. I always tell her how attracted I am to her and that's she's an amazing mother, which she absolutely is.

I truly, truly do not know how much more I can do for my family beyond what I am doing right now.

The constant having to work on "me" is driving my emotional state into the ground.

I am not perfect, I know this. But in comparison to this shit she tells me about her friends relationships, I think to myself how lucky we are to be in the situation we are in together.

I am exhausted, confused, sad, contemplating wtf that means for me seeing my daughter if we separate.

Sorry for rambling, I just needed to vent to someone.