I have been experiencing depression and anxiety my whole life and recently I have been going through the worst it has ever been. I can’t get up in the morning because I’m so depressed and have no motivation. I can’t leave the house cause of anxiety but I shouldn’t stay home cause of depression. I lost my job because I was late and couldn’t get up due to depression. I want to care and I know I am supposed to care about my job, income, friends, bills, etc… but I am at such a low point that even tho I know I will regret it later, at the time I just don’t care what I loose.

This has been going on for about 2-3 months and I am now on medication and starting to get better but my partner says they resent me because of my depression. That they don’t trust me to be responsible and that they aren’t happy around me. We recently got married and they are now talking about that we shouldn’t have or did it to fast even tho we have been together 6 years.

I understand it can be draining to be with someone who has depression but it really hurts to have your spouse say they resent you and think you shouldn’t have gotten married because you’ve been dealing with a mental illness. Also I have stood by her when she went through her depression multiple times, and she says that’s different because we lived at home but now we are adults and live alone so I’m not allowed to act this way and need to suck it up. Which I understand to an extent but I have never dealt with this and I don’t know what to do to get help. I cant afford professional care and I’ve looked into low cost programs but don’t qualify.

I also understand it can be scary to have your partner lose their job because you are depending on each other. But I did try my best to get to work and give my all when I was there. I also informed my boss of my mental illness and that it was the reason I had been late. But I still ended up getting fired. I have a good resume and am confident in finding another job, but I do see her fear and frustration.

Please give opinions and advice. Open to hearing anything even if it means I’m wrong. Open to messages also to be able to discuss/explain more.