Hey redditers I need advice on what the hell I'm meant to do. I am 18 and a trans male, ftm. My gf is currently 19 and nb, but for by she/they pronouns. This is technically a homosexual relationship but not really? Since I'm trans? Idk

For a while now, within my friend group, there is one girl named.. Amber, for the sake of keeping her secret, who is casted out because she was emited during middle school and it stuck with her all the way through high school. Nobody talks to her or likes her but me, and I'm very close with her and have been since before she was sent to a mental institution. She's helped me through my own attempts and when I went to the institution as well. We have similar interests and I loved her a lot.

The problem posed with my gf.. she approuched me the other day, telling me that she thought Emily was manipulating me into being on her side because I yelled at another one of my friends prior about talking shit on my best friend while I am right in front of her. She said she didn't like that and wanted me to distance myself from her, and I told her that it was fine and she wasn't, I did it on my own free will because the girl I yelling at had been told 2 times prior to stop talking about Amber right in front of me and she blew me off.

But that wasn't the reason for our fight today. Today we had finals, so the only time we got to see one another was in the morning. Normally I wait for her bus and walk her to our corner where we just talk and chat chat until Amber gets there and I go off with Amber and she goes off with our guy friends, Riley, Jude, and Alex who we adopted as of freshmen

Apparently she didn't like that and told our trans friend, Midas who we adopted as our as year. After finals I was in art and my teacher wasn't there so we had a sub and she told us to just do what we wanted which is normal we just finished our final projects in art. Midas proceeds to tell me about what Sadie (my gf) told him-- that she didn't like how close me and Amber were and she, again, thinks she's manipulating me.. that's understandable..

So when last bell rang after finals, we met by the bus round up and I walked them to their bus.. A lot of her and my friends were surrounding us and I didn't want to talk to her in front of them in fear of causing a scene, so when I got I my bus I messaged her on discord because I couldn't find her phone number.

Basically I told I was sorry and I didn't wanna loose her. I also wanna add that she's Poly and dates one other girl that I don't like either..

Then I sent the screenshots to Amber and she wasn't happy..

I think it's worth while mentioning that I'm supposed to be moving in with my gf in a month due to legal reasons involving my step dad doing stuff to me. It's a whole court case and that's also going on here..

Idk what to do, I love them both so much but I can't choose between them..