I don’t know if i should keep it concise or go in detail.

I’m 24, people around me don’t take me seriously. I don’t speak a lot and I don’t smile or laugh a lot. I’ve become a lot serious and silent from 2023 January. My game with girls is good no question about it but recently focusing on my career so not with a girl right now. I’m a kind of person who takes words seriously. And i do what i say.

Some days ago my neighbor buys a MacBook and came to me to set it up and take video editing software. Then he said we’ll go for party i already went out with my friends. We fixed on sunday 3 days later. Sunday goes by i call him at night around 9 and said aren’t we supposed to be somewhere ? He goes oh sorry I’m out with friends we’ll go tomorrow, i said i you’ll be in gym by evenin’ he said i will go in morning i said okay. Next day comes and i receive text by 10 that he overslept and we’ll go on sunday. I said okay and Sunday goes by no calls or anythin’. Then half week is passed and we were going to gym in evenin’ together, and i said I’m feeling like i should go for pizza this weekend. He said okay and sunday goes by no calls ? Dude also skipped gym on Thursday and Friday and on Saturday I didn’t even gave a call for gym.

It’s not ‘bout the party or pizza or burgers it’s ‘bout how much he stays on his word, i can afford 50 pizza’s at a time that’s how much money i have. It’s not like I can’t go and buy it, it’s just that me and him knows each other from childhood and we have similar sense of humor.

I know the road I’m walking on right now i will definitely lose lot of people on it and i lost my dearest brother, who was on constantly calls with me for hours and then when I earned so much money in one month and paid off my debt and gifted my parents a car. He stopped talking literally no calls at all not even a text. Brother we live in a same city he takes bus 700 meters from my home for his hometown. He studied in my city.

I became a kind of person who just minds his own business. one week ago I examined myself like where I’m ? What the fuck is happening ? Obviously i came back in debt even more than before. ‘Cause of my poor financial decisions. I’m working on it and I found myself stuck in my room with my 80 books and laptop and mobile phone and some eye drops. Not a lot of communication with parents or anyone.

Feeling sorry for myself so I’m gonna make things hard for myself will lift fucking heavy in gym and work fuckin’ hard on my office work.

The same dude respects and enjoys with other people in front of me but when we talk he stops smiling and talk normally.

It kinda hurts looking at people change !! When you work on your shit and make lot of money all of a sudden!! People don’t like you and i try to be that same person down to earth kind. Then it hurts and shatters the heart in millions of pieces.

And then when some self made rich guy doesn’t talk to you nicely or behaves rude then people say what a fucking moron or jackass. (Just give example)

My old friend’s my dearest brother good memories. All gone. Miss those days. It hurts.

Now I’m not gonna call him or goto gym together, or talk to anyone. Focusing on my goals NO MATTER WHAT.

I said it I’m gonna do it.

Thanks for reading I appreciate it i know it wasn’t concise, i just poured my heart out.