So my mom left when I was around 4 because my dad was abusive, and after that, he blamed me for it. He would ignore me for days, and I didn’t have anyone to talk to or anything. Somehow, he remarried to this woman, my stepmom. She was nice to me, listened to what I wanted to say, she was interested in my likings and he genuinely stopped being so harsh on me once they got together.

About a year into living together, I saw a movie on TV with a scene where some kids ask their stepdad to adopt them, and he says yes, and they’re all happy, blah blah. After that, I thought it would be a good idea to ask her to adopt me. So one day, I made a note and a drawing to ask her to adopt me, lol. When she came home, she seemed visibly annoyed about something, but I ignored all that and just went straight to ask her, thinking it was a great idea.

Well, it wasn’t. She yelled at me and told me not even my real mom wanted me. My dad came out of another room, didn’t ask what was going on, but just slapped me and told me to go to my room.

She apologized later, and everything was fine after that. My dad passed away a few years ago, and she still contacts me sometimes, just to keep in touch. I appreciate it, but I still feel some kind of... I don’t know, hate? I’m not sure.

I know she didn’t have to adopt me and it's been years, am I being childish? After all she's not my real mom so she doesn't owe me anything

I would just like to add that this isn't something I usually think about, it's just that I was actually talking to her few days ago and remembered some things from past

Thanks for nice replies but some people are taking this way too seriously lol It's not that deep, it doesn't keep me awake at night or something... I talked to her on the phone a couple of days ago and actually saw my bio mom for the first time in so many years, I mean she doesn't know who I am or anything but I know her so it kinda made me think about some things from past and overall ab life lol