I’m still kinda in shock that I did it

I (40f) was brought up not to swear, but I do. I don’t do it loads but I do it more than I like, it just seems to come out.

I started a new job this week and had a few days off last week before starting. My mum had an operation on her hand at the beginning of the year and hasn’t been able to drive since.

She wanted to go to an old lady group about 30/40 mins from her house and asked if I could take her and said she’d get the bus back home afterwards. The bus would take 2hrs, then she’d have a walk up the hill to her house with her big craft bag. Despite wanting the time for myself, I said I’d drive her.

I ran around that morning to get a precarious looking tyre fixed and get petrol, so left the house about 11 / 11:30 to get everything done and get to hers (c. 25mins away) I picked her up and told her that I’d run some errands over that side of town and take her home after too so she could get home at a reasonable time. I ended up just sitting around and waiting for her to finish up with her friends. On the drive home (c. 16:30) I told her that needed the bathroom, I hadn’t been all day. She asked ‘why’s that’, and I told her that I’d been out of the house the whole day for her.

When we got to hers, I asked her if I could use her bathroom and she said no. I asked if I could use the upstairs bathroom and just run up (not through the house) and she said no. I begged her to let me but she refused to let me in the house. After a moment she suggested I use the community centre a few minutes drive away, so I reactively told her to f*ck off.

Here’s the thing, my mum is a hoarder. I know it’s symptomatic of unaddressed issues and not letting go, and I’m normally really sensitive to it, I haven’t been allowed in the house for years and accept that. But I really needed to pee.

I thought she’d appreciate what I’d done for her that day but guess her anxiety over the house felt more important to her than my needs.

She’s been off with me ever since and hasn’t even thanked me for taking her out that day. So, AITH for telling my mum to FO?