So, I met my ex a while ago, and from the very start, she’d invite me over to hang out, usually to eat cake with her and her friends. Things seemed casual and fun at first. After a while, we got closer and started talking more, until one day we did a video call — but she wouldn’t turn her camera on. She always said her hair was messy or she looked bad.

Later on, she opened up and told me she was autistic, which explained a lot of the things I had noticed about her, like how distant she could be sometimes. Most of our conversations felt pretty one-sided, though I kept trying. We planned to meet at the park once, but she canceled last minute, claiming she had hurt her leg.

She also mentioned that I started acting differently after she told me about her autism. On top of that, she shared some personal stuff — how her ex left her, how she got replaced by another guy she had been seeing.

One day, I got mugged and almost lost her number. When I told her about it, she was super indifferent. She didn’t even seem worried and said she wouldn’t reach out anymore unless I texted first.

She talked a lot about her cats and her nephews, who apparently are autistic too. I also remember her getting extremely mad when her cousin brought up that she used to drink with her ex.

At some point, I invited her to the movies, since she had once joked about how we’d probably never actually go out. At first, she said no because she was too embarrassed, but after I insisted, she agreed. The next day, out of nowhere, she suggested we should “just stay friends.”

Even so, we went to the cinema. We met there, bought some candy, kissed during the movie, and spent the afternoon acting like a real couple. Still, she was always super private — never letting me near her phone and only sharing her Instagram with me after we broke up.

Later, we went to the mall. She gave me some chocolate, and somehow the day ended with us going to a motel. Once inside, she told me she was too shy and asked me to leave the lights off. I was fine with it, but her mood flipped in an instant, and she got cold and distant. After a while, we left, and I walked her home.

Another time, we hung out at the park, were all cuddly, and when it was time for her to leave, I offered to walk her home. I could tell she didn’t want me anywhere near her family. I still walked her to her place and left.

There was this other situation where her sister dropped her off at my house. I mentioned, half-jokingly, that we never went out because she was always making excuses, and she got really mad about it.

Another day, we played a game together, and I casually criticized the game. She got upset, stopped playing immediately, and pulled away. Not long after that, she brought me chocolate, we spent some time together, and then she randomly started talking about breaking up.

She once invited me to a party, said she wanted me to go with her, then later changed her mind and said she wasn’t going anymore. Then she changed her mind again and decided to go. I got annoyed and asked if she even wanted me there. I told her I’d go and asked if I could show up a bit earlier, but she was super clear that I could only come at 6 PM.

I went earlier anyway, and her sister saw me outside and invited me up. Later we went to her friend’s party, where she introduced me as her boyfriend. Out of the blue, while we were there, she turned to me and said, “Should we download an app and find you a hot girl?”

After the party, we went back to her place. She asked me to sleep over, but I decided to go home.

Fast forward a bit, I eventually called her and ended things. She cried, blocked me, and later told me I had ruined her emotionally, sent her into therapy, and “stole her happiness.” Even after all that, she texted me saying she missed me more than she thought she would.

We started talking again, but while we were texting one day, I found her on a dating app. I confronted her, and she told me to just “find someone else.” When I asked why she was on there, she said she was looking for her friend’s ex.

In the end, I told her I still loved her. She told me the feeling would pass and said she’d been somewhere recently and wished I had been there with her.

A few days later, she called and invited me to her mom’s birthday party, but I didn’t go. Her mom even called me to ask if I really loved her, and later invited me over for coffee.

We started talking again, but then she told me her dad was furious at me. I felt terrible, vented about the whole thing online, and somehow she found out. She confronted me, accused me of lying to her and using her, said everything she did was because of her insecurities and autism, told me she had prayed for me every day — and then blocked me again, for good.