I'm 19 and grew up in a strictly religious family where sex was a sin; even kissing was monitored. At 16, I encountered porn for the first time. At first, I ignored it, but over time, it sparked my curiosity and desire.

I now have a secret boyfriend (because my family wouldn't even allow it), and although I've wanted to explore with him, he says it's "wrong" and calls me "gross" for wanting him and watching porn. I feel trapped: my body and mind yearn to explore, but the voices from my upbringing (and now his) scream that I'm wrong. Has anyone else been through this? How did you reconcile your desires with so much pressure? I need to know I'm not alone in this... 🥺 What can I do?