I’m not the victim in this story, and I take full accountability for what I did to her. I’m truly sorry. When I was 15, a girl I used to be friends with told me she liked me. She was clingy and a bit controlling, and I have ADHD, so I hate when people try to control me.

I remember baiting her into confessing her feelings for me. And she did—she told me how much she liked me and how she saw something in me that no one else did, not even myself.

At the time, I had a close friend. We were so similar that people called us twins. I ended up telling her about the girl and her feelings, and we kept it a secret for about a week. But then another girl—let’s call her Sam—got jealous that we were hiding something from her. I was immature and told Sam about the girl in our year who liked me. Sam was an attention seeker, and she ended up telling everyone. All the older students found out. I felt terrible, but I didn’t reach out to the girl to see how she was doing.

We did end up texting late at night, and I tried to help her in some way. I wanted to tell everyone that I liked her too, but something kept holding me back.

Now, I’m 17. I still think about her, and I want to message her. I want to tell her that I had feelings for her too back then. I know I ruined her high school experience, and I beat myself up for it all the time.

I posted this story yesterday and got told to kill myself. That really hurt. But I’ve grown, and I’ve matured.

My question is: How do I contact her if I’m blocked and tell her that I loved her back then?or should I leave her alone.