I always thought my now husband was always super loyal to me, which is the only reason I married him (above all the other qualities, this was one of the main ones) On honeymoon, I found out he cheated. I’m now finding out he cheated multiple times, with multiple different women & also visited whore houses. I don’t blame any of the girls, but I did confront one of them since he deleted alllll evidence and all she did was attack me, when really I just asked a question. I’m apparently a ‘delusional fuckface’ and I should call that ‘thing’ my husband and I should get tested for std’s.

There hasn’t been one, but many other women. He has taken ownership of his actions and agrees to go to therapy with me but last night I had my first suicide attempt, which was stopped cause he broke the door down to get to me. Im just hurt. this other gurl called me a ‘cunt’ - he knows all of this and did nothing to defend me.

He promises he loves me and life will get better but I’m fucking stuck. I’ve been self harming too. Maybe I need to stop digging or do I ask for a divorce?

Idk what to do. Sorry for the rambling my thoughts are all over the place I don’t know if this even gives enough info. Do people actually heal from this ? What do I do? I need help.

Side note: I live in a new city and new home with him & I left my soft life with my rich family for love. I would do anything for him but idk if I can feel the same love for him when I look at him.