My husband's family is racist. They have proven it multiple times. He claims to have cut them off for years now. I recently found proof that he speaks to his mother everyday for hours at a time while he is at work. ( she has called me awful slurs and even wished death on our child bc he is biracial) when I ask him about his he tells me "my family is none of your business and I should mind my own business, or just straufht out denies being in contact.. I'm struggling with the fact that I will never really know him or what's going on there bc he always lies about it or shuts me down about it. ( I never asked him to cut his family off that was his idea and decision even thought I know now he never actually did it) on top of that I've been begging for attention. Today my and my 4 year old ran in the rain and I made our 4 month old belly laugh for the first time... all the while he is there on his phonee... he works, comes home and scrolls on his phone until he falls asleep every night. I miss feeling like he is into me or like I'm attractive or worth talking to. I miss when he used to treat our children like they were worth spending time with.... AITA for feeling the desire to leave?? I love him with all that I am. But the dishonesty and disinterest is killing me slowly. Be as honest as possible...