I 13(m) have done lost of things I shouldn't have at my age and I wonder if I'll ever recover being 13 is deffinetly not for the weak my parents want to seem perfect but they abuse me emotionally so much like most kids they deal with it but I was fed up and started doing things I shouldn't have done at my age. Thing I can't name but think about the worst things possible. my dad sent this message saying

"Because of everything that's happening, as soon as I speak to you and see that you don't understand, under no circumstances you are to be in the streets. I'm worried that they'll take your mother or me to jail. Your mother and I have decided to tell you thatt; - M to F the phone is closed until 9 p.m. and no going out Monday through Friday. If they want to come see you, excellent. Friends are allowed to come but only once a week - weekends you can out until 10pm AFTER you take a shower, clean your room, do the litter, and homework , whenever you go out you have to be in a friend's house. - We want you to dedicate yourself to studying, clean you room, do the laundry and going to the gym during the weeks - If doesn't change, we have that option: ▪︎ A residential center all summer or longer.

All of this, starting today. Thank you for your help"

I'm not suicidal anymore and I feel like they js don't want to deal with me anymore so I feel like running away but am I the asshole?

Edit: the root of the issue was mainly that I slept with an 18 year old but I did this consensually and I think I did this cause I was groomed and raped in the psych ward by an older man which changed my perspective on how I view men I identify as gay which is how I've been as a kid I've smoked since I was 10 and was suicidal up till I was 12 I think this 18 year old js added up to it