So basically I always hear reddit stories on TikTok, I had no idea that reddit showed naked girls. I’ve been with my bf 20 for over 2 years now and have discovered reddit months ago on his phone, I clicked on it hoping for some drama that I could read and ended up finding a bunch of naked girls, I brought this up to him saying that i’m uncomfortable with him looking at that stuff and it feels more personal then just watching porn. we’ve gotten into so many arguments about this and I’ve even brought up how it makes me disgusted and not want to be with him. I was on the breaking point and was about to break up with him. I gave him an ultimatum either he picks me or the girls with “perfect tits on reddit” also it makes me feel insecure which I have mentioned to him, asking him if he remembered how i wouldn’t show him my body for about 6 months when we first started having sex. It’s not like I have a weird body. my friends always tell me they wish they had my body. I don’t have huge boobs tho they are just C cups. and anyway he said he’s done trying to stop using reddit. And that I should just break up with him. I will admit I feel dependent on him. Im too attached. I have deleted reddit off his phone multiple times and he keeps downloading it. I have also brought up that I will dress up more for him and wear costumes cuz it seems like he likes that stuff. I can’t do anything about my boobs tho unfortunately. We also have many sex tapes over 30 for sure and it makes me that much more upset that he doesn’t even watch them and goes to reddit to watch orange woman who are not even attractive with obvious boob jobs. I don’t think i’ve seen anymore than 3 attractive girls on reddit on his phone. and if they’re not boob jobs they are normally really saggy. and it’s not like we don’t have sex often, we have sex normally everyday. He has also brought up to me recently that he doesn’t want kids, I want around four kids. He also said he’s not sure if he will ever marry anyone because it’s just too big of a commitment that is scary for him. I want to be married before 25. He also has said how he wants to go away for work and leave me behind, I asked if if he would let me come with him and he said no “it’s not what the girl does” and that I wouldn’t be able to find a job. Which is just ridiculous because I can find a job anywhere soon especially in small communities. I’m in nursing school btw. It’s almost obvious that I just need to break up with him but I can’t bring myself to do it. I also am not very great with handling my feelings when things happen and have huge mental breakdowns and also these are the only problems I have with him but the reddit thing is my biggest. He might want to marry some day and have kids and him working away wouldn’t be for another 5 years so it’s not even a set plan for him. Everything is is a loving relationship but i just feel tired of feeling unheard and not enough and disrespected by him going against my wishes. I’m looking for a way to improve that part of our relationship or something maybe even validation because I don’t tell my friends any of this because I don’t want them thinking of him differently or start to dislike him and I’m done keeping it to myself and bringing it up to someone who doesn’t give a single shit about my feelings towards reddit.