My dad and my sister and me recently came up with a Call of Cuthulu game, and to be honest, I haven’t been doing great the last few days. Even the littlest thing has me breaking down at school, and I constantly feel like I’m treading on thin ice of a meltdown. I didn’t want to play, and I voiced that as I went downstairs. Whole going downstairs, I found an Animal Crossing Lego thing, unbuilt. I love Lego, and my mood immediately lifted, and I was like “okay cool, I feel better” so I decided that playing wouldn’t be too bad. I get downstairs and sit at the dining table, and my dad kind of blows up at me for not wanting to play. He said I’m in my room all the time and I don’t interact with the family much at all. I’ll hand it to him, he has a point, but I have my own internal issues with everyone in our house, but of course I can’t tell him that or he’ll get angrier. I told him that I was going to play, and he said something about how he already made himself not want to play. He kind of passive aggressively told me that I could build my Lego’s in my room, and I said I was planning to build them downstairs, and he said okay. He then said that I no longer get any option on whether or not I go to any family function. I used to opt out when I could because I have crippling social anxiety, and depression, and I’m never in a good state on weekdays because of school. He then left the room, and I almost cried there, but I held it in. I don’t know what I did wrong. Yes, I didn’t want to play, but I had changed my mind. My dad has always been like this, and I probably have so many other stories, but it feels like every time it happens I get less and less hopeful. Every good moment we have feels more and more bitter knowing that any moment I could do something wrong and it would be enough to make him explode. It hurts, and he’s most of the reason that my own home doesn’t feel like home, and I only really feel comfortable in my room. I avoid him because of how he is, and it’s my worst fear that I’ll grow up to be like him, I’ve already seen signs. I don’t feel like I’m in the wrong, but I can’t help but feel a bit worthless now, that after trying my best all day at school I deflate and stop trying at home, and that’s wrong in some way. AITAH?